Surrender

Surrender

Freefalling 

Catching waves

Riding the wind

Whatever you want to call getting swept up in a moment in which presentness is the only option

Presentness and what to do in it

Fight it 

Fear it

Enjoy it

Recognise that freedom of the mind is a choice 

Peace is optional

So fear is optional

So surrender is optional

Not only to the state of affairs 

But to the author of them

Trusting that the maker of the wind the waves and the sky

Is more than able to calm, settle, and clear them

To make a way for your foot to tread where He made the soil

Pretty sure He’s got it

It’s all very poetic 

Thoughts and feelings hiding behind allegories and metaphors

Thoughts like, “What will I choose to do with tomorrow?”

“What will I choose to do with right now?”

Feelings like, ‘This is way to big for me.”

And “I fail so easily and live so fickly”

I know the only one worthy of my trust is Him.

Never me. Will never be. 

So, I’ll trust. 

And I’ll keep my vows when I say I will. 

Where He leads me, I’ll follow.

When He says, “Yes.’ I’ll proceed.

Halting only where He lingers 

And never going back

Jesus before me

Within me and beside me

Everything else behind me

Where my past and fear can stay 

Faithful only because He’s faithful

Courageous only because He is

Present only because He is

Surrendered because I’m His.

Consecration

Jesus, come, take all of my selfish pride
Make me into Your lovely and perfect bride 

I relent all and give You permission
To come and take all of my selfish ambition 

Make me live wholly for You and You alone
Don't let me take lightly what You died to atone

Mould me into Your perfect design
To You only will my heart now align

Take all that is passing and useless and false
To You I surrender every one of my faults

I know You're Redeemer, Lover, and Friend
I know there is nothing Your love can't amend

So take all of my stories, my now, and my then
Jesus, You're worthy of my every amen.